180

It's easy to fall out of things. It's easy to just settle in to work, spend your free time dicking off, and to find excuses for the things you've let fall to the wayside, whether it's finding ways to use your creativity, surf, workout, and be a better human being for yourself and those around you.

I convinced myself that where I've landed myself was enough, nothing to prove to anyone. So long as I'm happy and the wife is happy, there was no need to answer to anyone else.

But seeing posts about what everyone else is doing makes me feel like I'm short changing myself. I'm not trying to live to anyone else's standards, but I know that deep inside I can do more, like how I used to do more. Instead of listing them, I'll end with this... I've procrastinated long enough on a lot of things. The fact that I've opened up this blog page for the first time in months and even wrote something down, that's a damn good start for me. I'm hoping this continues. Behind the scenes, I need to get back on track.

My best friend, who's a sober drunk, used to tell me about "taking away from yourself," I took the lecture as contributing your time to things that don't better yourself, even worse, doing things that empty the pot or hollow you out. I guess I feel a little hollow.

Let the 180 begin.